sunnuntai 27. lokakuuta 2013

The inner fan boy surfaces

Wow, time flies. And it flies so fast. I've been surprisingly busy with the food blog and social life (yeah right, what social life) so I haven't been able to update this one. And guess what? Today we started another food blog. Ok, not a completely different one, but now we're going to publish the food blog also in English. I'll need to translate the recipes which will be somewhat time-consuming as well. But it's going to be worth it, since I think there are people around the world who are interested in traditional Finnish cooking.

But enough about that. The biggest thing since the last blog is... oh actually two things. But the thing that I am most excited about is the new Captain America: Winter Soldier trailer that came out a couple of days ago. I'm such a fan boy when it comes to the Marvel superhero movies, but above all other, I'm a Captain America fan boy. That has a lot to do with the fact that I'm also a huge Chris Evans fan. That man is just... guh! Perfect. I can't describe how excited I am about that movie and can't wait for it to be April already. I think I'll make another post tomorrow perhaps and will focus on my love for CA more. :)

And then the not so nice "big thing" since the previous post was a clash with an ex-of-sorts. We've had a long history, though the dating part of that was very short. But now I just couldn't deal with the whole thing anymore. Yes, we've been flirting and kind of skirting around the subject of maybe trying again, but I just don't want that anymore. It's not going to work, because I don't want it to work. I may have been a bit rude when trying to get that across, but nothing I can do about it now. At least it should be a subject that is clear.

Oh and of course... I went to see a musical back in the city where I studied. It was a program fully executed by a conference/concert hall where my friend works. It was pretty cool, even though it's not fully my cup of tea. I do like musicals, but that subject didn't hit the mark fully with me. However, we had so much fun otherwise. Went to eat lunch with friends before and afterwards we went to have dinner. It was so great to catch up with them. We're now kind of all over the country and don't get together as much as I would like, so this was a special treat.

But the weekends are really going way too fast nowadays. It's Monday again tomorrow and I just don't know where time goes. Only three more weeks and then I'm off to Barcelona for work.

Now I'm off to bed... Need some zZzZzs.

maanantai 14. lokakuuta 2013

Autumn blues

I don't really know whats up with me lately. I'm just constantly in a bad mood or then just practically in the verge of tears. And I know it's going to be so awkward if my friends read this, but I guess I'm kind of counting on no one reading this yet. Whether or not that is the case, this period of time is not the best one I've ever had.

Part of it is work, part people and relationships and part just simply me. I don't want to talk about my work and generally like it, but of course I don't always see eye to eye with everyone. And today was one of those days. It is stressful enough as it is.

I don't even remember which day it was last week, but I just got completely "paralyzed". Music can easily do that, when there's something that triggers a memory or a feeling. I usually try to avoid those songs. But things happen. So yeah, that was just a sudden big blow and ended up in a sort of an anxiety attack. Then add a horrible nightmare to that, after you finally are able to fall asleep, and you have a great start for the rest of the week.

Then of course there's the "relationships" stuff, which actually is and pretty much always has been non-existent. I can make a whole series of posts about that. Let's just say for now that things have been disappointing in the previous months. Not that that's news. I honestly don't expect to ever find the right guy, but more on that some other post. Now I just want to declare that I'm not feeling great, happy or anything similar and just want to crawl under the blanket, not do anything that has any purpose and so forth.

/end whining here.

keskiviikko 9. lokakuuta 2013

Here we go

Yep, the first personal public blog ever. Let's see what comes out of this. It just felt like a natural continuation to the other blog that I'm writing with my flat mate. That one's about traditional Finnish food, but unfortunately at least now it's only in Finnish. But if you want to check it out and like the pictures and want me to translate the recipe, just let me know. Would be happy to do so. The blog is at

Anyway, since I started writing that, I kinda thought that why not start a blog for myself as well and share all the boring details of my life. Let's call it therapy. Ok, not going to do that as such, but it is going to be my life that I will be writing about. Unfortunately I sometimes have a tendency to over-share. But I guess a good start might be to tell a little bit about myself.

I am a 29-year old guy from (and currently in) Finland. Very much single, living with a flat mate, working from home. I'm a bit of an odd case I think, because I'm not too fond of the Finnish way of life in general, but despite that fact I just moved back to Finland 6 months ago. Sometimes I just don't make sense. So I'd dare to call myself somewhat international as well, having lived the past 2+ years in Luxembourg. Before that I was going around the world with my job as a vacation guide/tour leader.

I don't usually make sense, sometimes even for myself, so be prepared that also the blogs will be highly irrational sometimes. My mood goes from 0 to 100 in a fraction of a second. It can be complicated sometimes, since I have a tendency of writing what I have in my head at that point, so if I'm upset about something, I write it down and then the next day I'm already over it and would already write something completely different. Oh well.

Let's already tackle one subject that I do find challenging with an open blog like this. Like I said, I don't have a problem sharing my life as such, but since I am nowadays a "professional, with a career" (whatever that means) and interact with quite a large amount of people, I do have a urge to keep those two parts of my life separate. That's strange in a way, because I don't really hide or change who I am at work versus who I am on my free time, but still. I am not too keen on everyone getting a glimpse on what's happening in my head. I don't think I'm a radical political activist, hugely passionate (and vocal) about my religious beliefs (which I don't really even have) or anything that I would want to keep to myself, but still... Maybe I don't want people to judge me for being me and expect that I should be something else than I really am. Who knows.

Now look at that, this really ended up being a therapy session after all. I think I should see myself at least once a week, so that we can possibly make some progress at some point.

So until that time... Over and out.